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The colors of pain: Is it red? Is it yellow? Is it green, blue, purple, orange, fuchsia or teal? Is your pain so colorful that other people see you wear your pain? Do you walk through an infrared machine and light up with colors intensely bright that people know where not to touch you?, how to be sensitive to your pain?, and which color tells them to be sensitive to your emotional needs when you can’t speak? Is there a color to explain the unseen pain that you don’t have strength to share for the five hundredth time, except to say sorry … I can’t extend my hand. It hurts and turns red when I shake hands, and recovery feels very blue for me. I don’t know where I’m going with this because I don’t feel green inside in response to the things you can do that I cannot; but I’d rather have my work-arounds, and learn how to do what I can do, not knowing if today will be cloudy and gray or look promising like the way vivid fuschia brightens me up. Maybe I can even turn in the direction of an intense, calming teal, giving me a sense of peace like the flowing ocean. If I look for both the colorful teal of the Fiji water and yellow of bright yellow like the glowing sun, my result is feeling healthy and upward / forward bound, sensing colorful movement, taking me somewhere, and no longer sitting in a stagnant mire with a blank slate.